I woke up this morning confused and frustrated because I’m about to graduate from college and I don’t know what to do next. I don’t know where I should work and I have no idea where to go from here. Nothing comes to mind when I try to plan my next step in life. I feel stuck. So I went to the bathroom, sat on the floor and started crying. Then I yelled at God in my mind, “Man, God, like why am I here!? What do you want from me!?!”
And he responded to me with a small voice, “I want you to continue to share your testimony.”
“But God, I’ve had a few people tell me that I shouldn’t share my testimony as much anymore, because it will make it harder for me to find a good job if my employers know my background. No one is going to want to hire me if they know my past history. Plus, it’s embarrassing to keep talking about what I used to do.”
Then God said, “Forget what people say and think. I want you to be who I have called you to be–Transparent. And forget about your reputation. It’s not about you. I want you to be a dummy for Christ. Don’t think. Just obey. Go where I tell you to go. Say what I tell you to say. Do what I tell you to do. I’m going to use you like bait. I’m going to hook you like a worm and cast you into the deepest sea. I’m going to send you out like a sheep among wolves. I’m going to draw many souls to myself through your testimony.”
Then God told me to listen to “For Your Glory” by Bishop Paul S. Morton…. He wants me to focus on building his Kingdom, not my career. This song has me ballin’ in tears man.