Halloween: Masking the Pain

#TBT Before I got saved, when I was in college, I was so caught up in worldly things. I remember this one time when I went out with four of my girl friends to this club in downtown Miami for Halloween. We almost got into a car accident on the expressway on our way to the club because we were speeding, trying to get to the club before midnight so the girls could get in for free. We didn’t make it before midnight, and they didn’t have any money on them, so I ended up paying for all of them as well as myself to get in. But it was cool. I had money like that.

Because it was Halloween, we all dressed up in costumes. Two of the girls were dressed up as sexy pussy cats, one dressed up as a female Harry Potter, one dressed up as a playboy bunny, and I dressed up as a male stripper in army fatigue. I had on my speedos, hand cuffs, and everything. In the picture, you can see me bumping and grinding in the club, drinking, and I had women coming up to me stuffing money in my underwear and in my pockets. I was so carnally minded, full of lust and perversion.

On the outside, I was having fun, but I was empty on the inside. I was lost. I was a victim of peer pressure. I was trying to cover up my hurts and struggles. I was  looking for love, acceptance, validation, attention, identity and purpose. But I was looking for it in all the wrong places. I couldn’t find fulfillment in women, in money, in the alcohol, in the club or any of that.

But when I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior he filled every void in my life. Now my joy is complete in Him! I am in this world, but no longer of this world. I am an EX-Conformist.

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