I saw a vision of a woman who was really broken. She was on drugs, an alcoholic, into prostitution, and had a different guy coming into her house every night. Now, this lady had an innocent little baby girl who she didn’t want to be defiled by all the negativity in her life. So every time the church doors opened up, she would send her baby with the neighbors to go to church with them. She wanted to go to church with her daughter, but she had a great fear (reverence) for the LORD. In her heart, she said, “I don’t want to go to church when I know I’m not living right. I don’t want to play with God like that.” She thought that by her sending her baby to church, and raising her up to know the Lord, that would be enough to protect the baby from being defiled. But when the baby would be dropped back off home after church, the baby would be right back in the same negative environment that the mother was trying to prevent the baby from experiencing in the first place. The baby was around the drugs, the alcohol, all the thugs, the perverted music, the cursing, the sex–all the unclean spirits.
I don’t know who this mother is, but I want to encourage you: You are doing a good job by sending your child to church to be trained up in the ways of the Lord. God is able to be a better parent to your child than you can be at this current moment. But you have to get your life together as well. The church will set a good example for your child, but you will always be their parent, and when they come back home, your life will have just as much of an influence on them as well. Make an effort to get your life in order. Do it for God, your child, and for yourself. I know you don’t want to go to church because you don’t want to be a hypocrite. But ask God for the strength to let go of those addictions (sins) you have that are keeping you from being the woman that God is calling you to be. Ask God to give you a heart that loves the things that he loves and to hate the things that he hate. If you are afraid or don’t know how to cut the negative people out of your life, ask God to do it for you. Ask God to remove the people in your life who are hindering your spiritual growth and to replace them with people who have your best interest at heart. Ask God to sanctify your home and to cast out all the unclean spirits that have made their residence there. God loves you. Don’t let anything, including yourself and all your flaws, hinder you from receiving his love. Pray, read your Bible, start going to church with your daughter. Start a new life, together. God has greater in store for the both of you.