Can I be transparent?
I drove past a cop car earlier that was pulled over on the side of the highway. Most likely a speed trap. As soon as I saw the car, fear, hatred and bitterness filled my heart.
The first thought that came to my mind was, “Ugh, I can’t stand cops!” 🙄
At that moment, it felt like the Holy Spirit began to minister to my spirit and I had a full conversation with him in my mind.
Holy Spirit: What exactly is it that you can’t stand about cops? 🤔
Me: They are snakes. They are always trying to catch you slippin’. 😡
Holy Spirit: Does this perception of cops come from your personal experiences with them? 🤔
Me: Yeah. They pulled me over several times before and issued me tickets! 😠
Holy Spirit: Were you guilty of what they pulled you over for or gave you a citation for? 🤔
Me: Yeah. But everyone else was doing the same things I got pulled over for, and they didn’t get caught. Yet I did. That’s not fair. They could’ve at least given me a warning. They just wanted to be nasty. 😑
Holy Spirit: Umm hmm. 🤔
Me: Plus, on separate occasions, I’ve witnessed the police place my mother and father in handcuffs, and take them into custody right in from of me. And my step dad is still locked up in the feds after almost 30 years. He’s been in prison my whole life! Cops can’t be trusted. They are responsible for separating families. 😢
Holy Spirit: Were your parents guilty of what they were arrested for? 🤔
Me: Yeah, but there are many times when people are innocent, and there are crooked cops who racial profile, give out tickets and arrest people just because… Giving people unfair, lengthy prison sentences. They even break the same laws they are called to uphold. They are abusing their authority! 😑
Holy Spirit: Unfortunately, not everyone who breaks the law gets caught. And that’s not fair. Unfortunately, there are a lot of crooked cops who abuse their authority and the justice system does have a lot of corruption, but for every bad cop, there’s a good cop. 😌
Me: *not trying to hear it* 🙄
Holy Spirit: And just because a cop doesn’t give you mercy or a warning, but rather pulls you over, gives a ticket or arrests you, that doesn’t automatically make them a bad cop. If you broke the law, and they give you a consequence that you rightfully deserve, they are only doing their job. They are standing for the law of justice to ensure public safety. And that actually makes them a good cop. 😊
Me: *whatever* 🙄
Holy Spirit: It’s not cops that you can’t stand. It’s the law. The reason why you feel anger, hatred and bitterness is not only because of the isolated cases of brutality and partiality you have witnessed by crooked cops. It’s because in your heart, you can’t stand justice. You can’t stand righteous judgment, especially if you’re on the receiving end of it. The reason why you duck and dodge police and can’t stand when they are around you is because they convict you and are a reflection to remind you of a standard that you don’t want to uphold. Your heart of opposition toward obeying man’s natural laws is often a reflection of your heart toward obeying God’s spiritual laws. Just as you duck and dodge police, you also duck and dodge Christians or spiritual leaders when you’re operating in a spirit of error so you can avoid being corrected by the word of God. You want to live by your own rules and not be held accountable by a higher power. Your issue is pride and not wanting to submit.
Holy Spirit: *brings me into remembrance of scripture* “Everyone must submit to governing authorities. For all authority comes from God, and those in positions of authority have been placed there by God. So anyone who rebels against authority is rebelling against what God has instituted, and they will be punished. For the authorities do not strike fear in people who are doing right, but in those who are doing wrong. Would you like to live without fear of the authorities? Do what is right, and they will honor you. The authorities are God’s servants, sent for your good. But if you are doing wrong, of course you should be afraid, for they have the power to punish you. They are God’s servants, sent for the very purpose of punishing those who do what is wrong. So you must submit to them, not only to avoid punishment, but also to keep a clear conscience.” (Romans 13:1-5 NLT)