Accepting The Call

I will never forget the day God called me into ministry. It was on July 14, 2009, a little less than a year after I got saved. I was spending the summer at my grandmother’s house in Woodbury, Georgia and I had just recently finished a 7 day Daniel fast in which I spent the whole week praying to find out what my purpose was. Then one afternoon, as I was laying on my bed, staring up at the ceiling mediating, the Holy Spirit came over me and I entered into a deep trance.

In my trance, I was at a McDonalds, sitting at a table, eating lunch. One of the employees was walking around the dining area, wiping down the tables, throwing away trash and collecting trays that customers left on the table. I was observing him. As he was wiping down the table directly in front of me, I noticed that he started to stare at me with these all so familiar eyes. It was a spirit of seduction. He stared at me the whole time he was wiping down the table, enticing me in a sense. Knowing what kind of spirit I was dealing with, I quickly got up from my seat and walked away. I ended up walking outside into Ronald’s Play Place, sat on the edge of the colorful ball pit and began to think to myself, ‘How come this homosexual spirit always find me? I can’t seem to escape from it.’

All of a sudden, the play room began to glow with a bright light. I glanced over to the corner of the room and saw a giant celestial being. I believe that according to Isaiah 6:2, it was a seraph angel. He was about 8-10 feet tall and I saw that he had at least two pair of wings that were as long as the angel was tall. One pair of wings were folded behind his back, the other pair of wings were covering everything from his face to the sole of his feet. There was a great light glowing and shining from him. Then I walked over to the angel to gaze upon his glory, and that’s when he captured me. He opened up the wings which were covering his face, grabbed me with them and pulled me into his bosom. Then he hugged me tightly with his wings, and with the other pair behind his back, he flapped them open and flew off. He took me to heaven and dropped me off on a cloud and flew away. The Lord sent the angel on an assignment to summon me to His presence. While I was on the cloud, I was looking around, amazed and fascinated by what I saw. I was like, “Cool! I’m in heaven!”

Then all of a sudden, I heard a loud thunderous sound, coming from above, and when I looked up, I saw a bright shining light, much like a star, and it just about blinded me, so I had to bow my head and cover my eyes in order to protect them. I had keen discernment while in heaven so I knew it was God. Then God dropped a handful of photographs on the cloud I was sitting on. As I scattered the photos out, I noticed that they were all pictures of people who I knew struggled with sexual immorality. One was a homosexual, one was on the down low, one was lesbian, one was a porn addict, one was a masturbator, one was a stripper, one was an adulterous woman, one was a pedophile, one had experimented with bestiality, and the list goes on. I then asked God, “Who are these people? And why are you showing me pictures of them?” God spoke back to me and said, “These pictures represent the different types of people whom I want you to minister to.” Then pointing at a set of blank Polaroid pictures which had not cleared up yet, I said, “What about these blank pictures that have no face on them? What type of people are these?” And God said, “Those are types of people who I have not yet revealed to you. Once I reveal them to you, their face will appear on the pictures.”

Then I laughed and nodded my head in disbelief. Pushing the pictures away from me I said, “Surely you aren’t calling me to minister to these types of people. How am I going to minister to people who struggle with the same things I struggle with?” God replied, “My strength is made perfect in your weakness. My grace is sufficient for you.” Still in disbelief, I said, “But I still struggle with porn and masturbation. I still struggle with lust and perversion. I still struggle with my sexuality. I am trying to overcome my own struggles. And once I do, I am going to distance myself as far as I can from those who still deal with sexual sin, in order to keep me from falling back.” Then God said, “But this is the very reason why I have called you. You will be like Moses. I am delivering you from Egypt, just to send you back to Egypt to help set other captives free.”

I still wasn’t seeing things God’s way. And I told him, “No. I don’t want this ministry. Give me a different ministry.” Then God said, “Remember when you were praying a while back? You didn’t TELL ME what you were going to do for me. You ASKED ME, ‘God, what do you want me to do for you?’ And this is what I want you to do. “

Then God taught me the parable of the two sons, found in Matthew 21:28-31:

There was a man who had two sons. He went to the first and said, ‘Son, go and work today in the vineyard.’

“‘I will not,’ he answered, but later he changed his mind and went.

“Then the father went to the other son and said the same thing. He answered, ‘I will, sir,’ but he did not go.

“Which of the two did what his father wanted?”

“The first,” I answered. Then God said, “Go, and do likewise.”

After that, the vision went away and I came out of the trance. I realized God was not going to change his mind, so I told God “Yes to your will.”

Ever since that day, I have been given a ministry called Transparent For Christ, where I help those who struggle with sexual addiction, sexual identity confusion, and sexual brokenness. God has used me to minister to homosexuals, lesbians, studs and drag queens, prostitutes, transsexual and transgendered persons, rape and molestation victims, porn stars, porn addicts, masturbators, fornicators, those who have committed adultery, those who have had sexual thoughts regarding children and animals, and etc. I am now affiliated with leaders over other ministries that promote sexual purity such as: Passion For Christ Movement, The Overcomers Network, The Pink Cross Foundation, God Over Porn, Worth The Wait Revolution, and more. I have been a guest speaker on about 10 different radio talk shows and teleconferences. I’ve led seminars at Christian conferences, shared my testimony at several churches and colleges, I’ve performed spoken word poetry at other functions, and I have had my testimony featured in a book called “The Best Sex of My Life,” a book that promotes sexual purity. I found a church home that helped me find deliverance and healing from my sexual addictions, identity confusion and brokenness, and I landed a job at a company called Abstinence Between Strong Teens International, Inc., where I teach youth about character development as it relates to relationships, marriage and sex.

All of these opportunities to collaborate, share the gospel, and minister hope, love, deliverance and salvation to others came from my willingness to say YES to God and YES to His will. It has not been easy, I’ve faced tremendous spiritual warfare and persecution from others. I’ve been faced with many temptations, made plenty mistakes, fell into patterns of sin along the way and had to repent. Sometimes, I have even cried and wanted to give up and throw in the towel. But I learned that God won’t put on you more than you can bear, and I learned that the will of God will not take you where the grace of God cannot keep you. So, I will be a good soldier and fight the good fight of faith, I will run the race that’s been set before me, and I will complete the task that the Lord Jesus has given me. I long to hear “Job well done, my good and faithful servant.”

I encourage you to say YES to God as well. His plans for your life are greater than your plans for your own life. God wants to use you for his Kingdom and glory, and to make a difference in the lives of others. You won’t be working in vain. God promises that a laborer is worth his hire.