My First HIV Test…

TESTIMONY! So today is December 1st, World AIDS Day, and it was my first time ever getting tested for HIV/AIDS. The female counselor in my school’s Wellness Center swabbed my spit & asked me all of these questions, such as, “Have you ever had unprotected sex of any kind, including giving/receiving oral?” “Have you ever been molested?” “Have you ever had sex with a man?”

I was like LAWD! These are kinda personal questions, but if I can BOLDLY do these things in the world, then I can BOLDLY testify about my deliverance. “Yes,” I told her to all three questions. Then pointing at my blue shirt, I told her, “But now, I’m an EX-Fornicator.”

Then she asked me, “So, are you telling me that you’re not having sex anymore? I said, “Yup.” So she asked, “So you practice abstinence?” I responded, “Yep.” Then she asked, “So you’ve never had sex again after you said you weren’t going to anymore?” I was like, “I’ve been saved and abstinent for over 2 years now. I’ve messed up and fell into a sex act once earlier this year. But I repented and God forgave me. I don’t dwell on the past, I must keep pressing for holiness.”

She was like, “But sex is human nature.” And I was like, “Yeah, but premarital sex is SIN nature. God has an order. Sex must be between MAN and WOMAN and they must be in covenant as HUSBAND and WIFE. Using condoms may protect you from HIV and unwanted pregnancy, but they don’t protect you from sinning against God and going to Hell.” (Ref: Marriage is to be held in honor among all, and the marriage bed is to be undefiled; for fornicators and adulterers God will judge, Hebrews 13:4.) She was like, “So how do you do it?” And I asked her, “Do you believe in God?” And she said,”Yes.” Then I asked, “Are you Christian?” And she said, “Yeah, I believe in Jesus.” Then I told her, “As a Christian, Jesus said, if we want to be his disciple, we must DENY ourselves and follow him. THAT’s why I’ve not fallen into sex again. I want to have sex in my flesh. But I DENY myself and obey God.”

She said, “But that’s hard, isn’t it?” And I told her, “With man it’s impossible, but with God all things are possible. Just because it’s hard to stop having premarital sex, that doesn’t give us an excuse to continue doing it. We must ask God for strength.” Then God told me to tell her to COME HIGHER. At that moment, another student knocked on the clinic door, because they were in the waiting room and wanted to get tested but we were taking too long. So I told her, “God bless. I have to go now.” And she was like, “Wait! Give me a hug, I needed to hear that!” Then she gave me my result paper back (with her number on the back, so I could call her to finish ministering to her). The results were of course, NEGATIVE.


Other’s deliverance is in YOUR testimony. So stop being embarrassed, prideful or afraid to tell people what you’ve done. There is nothing new under the sun. (Ecclesiastes 1:9) And there is nothing that has overtaken you except that which is common to all men. (1 Corinthians 10:13) People are struggling and need you to open up about how you’ve been set free, so they can know that they have HOPE. And if you’ve truly been delivered from whatever struggle you’ve had, and Jesus has washed away your sins, why do you keep condemning yourself for what you are already forgiven for?

It’s hard to believe someone has been delivered from something if they never testified about it. Have you ever heard of that story “I ONCE WAS BLIND, BUT NOW I SEE”? That was one man’s testimony of what Jesus had done for him (John 9:25). We all have a testimony. Every single one of us. And if we were grateful for what Jesus did for us (saved and forgave us of our sins), then we would share our testimony with others. That is why we overcome the enemy [Satan] by the blood of the Lamb [Jesus] and by the words of our testimony. (Revelation 12:11)

What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? Those things result in death! But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. Romans 6:21-22

Having sex feels good and it gives us temporary pleasure, of course, but when done outside of the context of marriage, it is out of order. We have to learn how to wait until we get married. You may get sexually frustrated in the meantime, but ask God to help you develop self-control because True Love Waits. Hebrews 11:25 says “Choose rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season.”

Once you realize how wicked premarital sex is in the eyes of God, those joyful sins become shameful burdens. But Jesus Christ is the annointed one who can break the yokes that may have you feel ashamed. If you have committed sin and are ashamed of it, give your life to Jesus. He can set you free from your sins, shame and guilt, and the benefit that you will reap will lead to holiness. Romans 6:23, for the wages of sin is DEATH, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus.

And if anyone shall give their life to Christ Jesus, then your old lifestyle will pass away and he will make all things new! 2 Corinthians 5:17

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